when all your friends kept telling you how understanding you are. How they can tell you everything thats been going on if they life, what that they did and they know somehow you will understand them, and you will.
But then again the person that you care the most, the one yang you paling sayang siang malam nak tahu dia buat apa je, bila ada problem he ran away from you? maybe you tried to give them space,ignoring the fact that they dont even bother answering your call or your text for a few days dah but bila kawan dia ajak lepak bole jer dia angkat call, infact, dia yang call. how do you feel?
It hurts doesnt it?
so forgive me for telling him not to bother calling me ever again
Maybe he do have some problem,maybe im the silly one who thinks to much. If i am, tell me why he doesnt bother to give any explanation till now?
*tiba-tiba terdengar satu suara dtg dr mana ntah* sebab kau tutup phone kau satu hari!
K,fine. maybe i did. But I bet, krg bukak pun xder apa2-apa pun.
After i sent those text, i pretend not to care. Macam biasalah, bila these things happen mula la suara karl mcm yoda tue keluar dkt kepala and dengar la dia bagi semua quote-quote dia (where is that boy btw?). Dengarla dia ckp "dont hold your life for someone, Done make someone a priority..bla bla bla.." byk sgt la karl.
Anyways sekejap jer la ok. keluar semua women power, the I-dont-need-a-man attitude. But then bila tak samapai setangah jam..i have these feelings..i kinda miss him. a little. Maybe i reacted too harshly, too soon
But then again, a smart women leave before he is being left kan?
Plus im tired being a rag doll. oh god Malas la nak fikir. whatever that will happen is going to happen<----ini karl yang cakap jugak.
whats V.F? excuse you,V.F pun x taw ke? V.F is not Vanity Fair ok?eventho most of the member is quite vain. thehhe. chill2, main2 jer. sheena syg korg. V.F is vyruz family, the names a bunch op my sayangs at subang call themselves. HELLO, korg ingat perempuan jer ada group? lelaki pun ada ok? plus nie dari skola diorg pggl them self nie so xderla rasa nak muntah and tampar2 diorg umur 21 nak ada group lagi. And they are quite close. close yg smpy tahap i rasa luar dr group nie diorg mcm dh xder kwn lain. Close yg smpy i rasa rahsia dlm kain pun diorang share.korang korangggg! T.T Xperla, atleast sapa lagi bole brag that diorg still rapat dgn kwn skola diorg? not many i think.
ANYWAYS, dh2, x pyh nak citer byk sgt pasal history korg. nie smpy esok pun x habis. I dont wanna talk about all of you. I nak cakap psl sorg jer.
I wanna talk about this particular group member :
(Eheheh..nak kutuk, so amekla gamba man yg plg ensem so nak pujuk)
Anyways did you know wht he did? smlm punyal excited nak kuar dgn diorg after hari yg sgt memenatkan. mula2 he picked me up from my house. dia still lagi jadik diri dia yg sgt baik and sweet. dh pas dia kutip freez and nazman barula syaiton dia kuar. We had to stop at his house first. anta food kat mak dia yg x makan lagi (ala2, shweetnya.) pastu odw nak pg tanjung dia cakap "eyh jap,ala, lupa sorg and terus pergi ke arah rumah dkt petronas usj 6 tue (sapa2 taw rumah siapa tawla. malas nak sebut nama dia )
me: man, nak pg mana? man? nak pg mana lagi? nak amek ***** la! (nama x mau sebut) me:jangan man, sheena ckp apa? man: its time korg jumpa
that time i know they were kidding but muka semua serious mcm betul. i dh target dh, i'll play along, kalau btol mamat tue kuar i'm gonna get out of the car. masa tue air mata dh genang2 sebab x suka kena paksa jumpa mamat tue. tgk man, nak buat muka kesian. dia buat bodo jer. benti dpn umah HIM LAMA GILA! Then freez call HIM and kata kat mana and depan umah semua. part tue la yg kantoi sebab tetibe..jeng jeng jeng...hp freez bunyi. LOL! leganya, jgn ckpla.
Masa tue rasa lega ada, rasa mcm nak tampar diorg pun ada. masa tue semuala buat muka cute and x bersalah. macam tak kejamla and lawak la gurau senda biasa la diorg buat tue.
Ishk, kalau dia ada masa tue, sumpah sheena kuar keta and chow balik rumah. im sorry guys, i know korg nak sheena baik dgn dia. but i want him out of my life. and kalau anda buat lawak yg sgt x kelakar itu lagi, saya mengadu dgn azam!
Today is a good day of which i'll enjoy the most that i can life is good people! and it'll be funner once tasha and ami is back! hehe miss u babies! xx
This past 2,3 days, every that i go, i kept having this i dont what you called it. I think its a an out of body experience. anyways, i've been having these moments where at one time i could be lets say, mamak or in the car, chatting with some friends and suddenly i could smell the the sea! yes people. i could smell the sea! Right in the middle of the mamak! and quickly my soul will be transport to these exotic places. right beside the sea.Usually I'll start to picture myself in a hotel room and when i walk to the window and open look out...tadah! the whole entire beautiful beutiful ocean is right in front of me and i'll start to have these big euphoria feeling. Happiness i cant describe. I always love the sea =)
Anyways, this out-of-body experience only lasted till i blinked my eyes again and im back, to wherever it is i am
Maybe my body is trying to tell me that it needs a vacation;)
Lima is next week. God, i really,really wanna go! i wanted to go since last two,three years! but didnt get the chance too because dad said that he got tons of work to do and he cant take care of me and look after me. so i said "daddy, you just have to bring me there, i can take care of myself!" and do you know what he replies is? "That's what i'm afraid of"
......
Argggh! I dont care. I wanna go this year. I wanna gooo!! *cue rolling on the floor, throwing the biggest tantrum* and no! i didn't wanna go coz there's going to be alot of hot young pilots strolling around, not to mention the hot foreigners. ishk korg nie! I am not THAT shallow. *menipu* K la, fine. maybe a little. But mostly i just wanna see the cool airplanes show and just chill around the island eating chocolates, fufu and watching the beautiful "birdies" up in the sky.
Beside, boy already promise he'll accompany me. It should be fun. Its been MONTHS since i was him. i miss him and being with him had always been lots of fun
so here to going to LIMA! God, im going to beg him till he's ears fell off.
E thinks i'm making up stories about her bf that once come on to me. Why? coz he told her that it was a joke. if it's a joke I, tell me this, why is it took you so long to say the "haha, gotcha?"
and why do would you only say it when i hinted E first?
Think, E! Think! I know i once did something im not proud off, which is dating an ex of a friend, which make me a BF STEALER. but that was a different story. different time and people! I would never did anything like that to you. and i never wanted to steal Ezad away from her too. And im sorry till now, karma made me pay big for that
I know you have a doubt over my stories and somehow he's version makes more senses. But think.
I want you to be happy, but at the same time. I need you to know im not lying It doesnt feel like a joke to me If it is, that's some sick joke
I know that a certain close friend of mine is happy that the boy she had a crush on is RECENTLY FRESH ON THE MARKET Go for it C! He's gorgeous. But careful. you're threading on thin ice Everyone know that they always fight But will get back together in the end May the best girl win But you have to remember even if you have him it doesnt mean the fight is over word on the street is He has a wondering eyes Hence all the fighting he have with the For-Now-ex-Gf.
Happy bday babee! Hope you had fun yesterday night and may all your years to come be blessed with lots of love and hopes coming through! Coz god knows, you deserve it. hehe cheers love! xx
That is well spent, the great reminder why sometimes even though you were totally tired and you could think of nothing else but your bed but you muster all you strength you have to see this people. This silly loved ones. Who makes it an effort to see you even if they live miles and miles away.
Okay, this is kinda funny. teringat something. on how i was trying to make an effort to see a friend of mine last night who lives like a few block from me. On how she said she was super busy On how in the end she said that she actually wanted to see my ex (who's a big asshole and i never wanna see again. no, im nt being bitter. he just is) On how in the end, my friend from ttdi and ampang who calls me constantly Wanted to spent time with me Why is it that they could come all the way to subang to see me and you couldnt come and say hello once in awhile? Thats all i ask And yes, i know he's more important to you than me But a simple hello how are you would be nice Its not only just him who loves you and wants to spent time with you I love you too I hate fighting friends with him.
Anyways this post it aint about her. tersasar jap. what i wanna tell you that its true. anywhere is a great place if its with the right people. it was just perfect. good food, great people, fab shesha. Patutnya pg changkat, bday booga or zouk kenapa ntah naya nak pg sana smlm. x ingat. but end up pd andalus jer smlm after celebrating azam's bday. But it was fun. Naya was right, dont plan, it wont go out right. the spontenous things is much more funner.
Seeing him for the last time before he went back makes it more fab=) I'll miss you sayang and what you said yesterday really made me smile.
Naughty naughty N, going out to socialize minus the bf who sat blissfully unaware in UK ;) Would be fun, if it wasnt for the fact that you bumped with his WHOLE gang! Damn, that part is still funny!
Dull night, thank god that a red bull came and hypen up the night. wait, wasnt that fun actually, funny. yes. fun? nah. but you have to admit, the drink is delicious. At least thats d only good think bout last night.
Thanx for the drink gorgeous! and may he'll remain blissfully unaware forever. what he doesnt know wont hurt him huh?
(sorry N. cant help it. have to blog bout it. haha)
Lets, you and me take that long vacation that's long overdue ditch that car of yours coz its drowning out my words lets take a bike instead and cycle uphill towards take cliff overlooking that ocean that big blue ocean
Lets seat underneath that tree and lets talk like we used to lets laugh surely you havent forgotten how hilarious we both can be if its just you and me
so lets, take that bike and cycle towards that road.
Mummy, can i have a room exactly like this, please? i promise i keep it clean but i cant promise i will not have a sleepover every.single.night you could join to if u want to umi!
Have you ever had this one moment where you have thousand things running through your mind but you're afraid to voice it out afraid to be judged to be sneer at to be talked about i did
Ever since a close friend of mine passed away last ramadhan ive been meaning to talk about it here but i was to scared to voice it aloud afraid that if i talk about it that its true that he's really is gone you see i never get the chance to thank him for saving me that time and the fact that he never talks about it afterward and just give me time to heal and to talk about it myself makes him more amazing than ever
i cried three days straight when he passed away remembering him he's energy is infectious and he always had this big grin and this ears that seems to always ready to listen always caring always trying to be there for you
so abbil, thank you you have been such an amazing friend you will always be remembered by the people who love you and will always love you.
maybe now, i could accept the fact that you're really gone. maybe you are but deep inside our heart is where you live always forever
somewhere to amuse myself bout the things that happen in my daily life. normal unnoticeable things that happens till one day it'll become a long ago distant memory that i'll read back and remember all those wonderful things go unnoticed =)
You may notice a some sort of GG wannabe writings in some of the post, thats to amuse only the people who knew these person personally. all the drama in my life shall not go unnoticed!
