Speaking Of Which

hello lovers, its been so long :)

2011-03-30T02:47:00.001-07:00

Haven't written in a longg time out of laziness and the fact that i lost my password. till now and had been to lazy to do the old "forget your password click here" phase. so yeah.

anyways i'm back and i think i'll try to write back so the future me could look back in what i wrote and sengih sorang2 thinking bout the good ol times.

not much to tell right now. but i will soon! starting with the rally event that im attending tomorrow in jb! woot woot! how cool is that? plus its an international event baby!

and i'm going there with my production crew meaning that i could go in where you guys the spectators cant. ha! *berlagak padahal pergi sana mekap org*

yes. there is actually somebody who needs make up at a rally event. but she is one of the organizers so she's an exception.

make-up tu pun satu citer lain. wtf hopefully my make-up technic is good enough. im trapped by my boss's casual ways of asking like its no biggie.

jumpa the person baru tahu, amek kau she's like the CEO or something.

lain kali tanya betul2 k sheena?

hopefully one of the drivers will take me on a spin in of these babies.

til then guys! buh bye.

Public Apology To Aza Hartini

2009-12-14T02:44:00.000-08:00

To Miss A,
Thank you for always taking care
Of the airhead that is me
You dont have to
But you always do

Thank you

I said something that might hurt you just now
Im sorry

After the emotion subsides
And logics started to crept back
I have to admit
That I am ashamed of myself

For now I realise
The emotional outburst
Had always come because of me
The way I behave
The way I always think that everything will be sort out for me
For my sometimes insensitivesness
The way I am always reckless
Irresponsible

Therefore I am sorry
For words I might hurt you

What have I done to deserve you?
Im sorry
Forgive me.

I know I always say this
But I will try to become a diffrent person
Someone who is more responsible

Please dont stop caring
Coz I need you
And I do look up to you

You're always the stronger ones between us

And because i am a coward, i mintak maap kat sinik jer
Tak berani mintak maap depan-depan.

If Songs Could Trigger Memories

2009-12-13T02:18:00.000-08:00

If songs could trigger memories,then these songs never fails to re-live a long lost forgotten memory. You know what i mean, this songs that whenever its played you will be immediately be transported to another space and time. Immediately you remembered the people,the place and even sometime the smell of that particular time. Like you're transported back to it.I think This is a few of the songs that never fails to take me away to other places.

We Could Be in love By Lea Solanga : I dont think most of you ever heard of Lea, unless you're a fan of of musical thatre and adrew lloyd webber. She is freaking amazing.nyanyi yang tahap pitching tinggi gila but still sangat sedap,kalau i buat memamg lari semua anjing kucing dekat rumah.
Anyways, this song nie walaupun love song but my dad yang suka. Masa first time bought the CD,it was in penang and for three days dia asyik ulanggggg jer lagu nie.kira sampai jer kat kl i dh khatam lagu ini and nak dengar lagi memang "owh tidak,please la kau rosak CD" tp memang CD tue evil. tak rosak pun,maka sampai jer kat Subang,keesokan hari nya CD itu tiba2 "mysteriously" hilang. Tak sanggup dah dengar, so i nyorokkan. Lantakla abah, u nak jerit marah2 tanya mana CD u pun i tak kisah. anything but to hear the song. again! Lama-lama dia lupa la pasal lagu tu. leganya.
But, kalau rindu si gemuk tu dulu masa time gaduh bukak jugak lagu tu. Orang dengar ingat tengah putus cinta tapi sebenarnya rindu bapak. So kalau dengar lagu nie jer mesti ingat bapak. And still hafal lagu nie sampai sekarang (that song was like,from 5 years ago i dengar)

Kissing A fool By Micheal Bubble: Ehehhe. Nie lagu budget sweet memories.There's this one guy once. He's name is aaron Walsh, macam mana ntah that time we're talking and he said he always slow dance with his mom. I told him i never slow dance before(hello, masa tue form 4, nari takat joget dalam bilik sorang-sorang jer dulu) and he said one day we'll slow dance together and he'll teach me how to. I pun dulu bimbo gila, ingat slow dance kena ada this macam ballroom type of song jer and i ask him betul ke? Dia gelak jer and ask me to choose any slow songs that i like, and i choose this song coz masa tue i suka gila dengan song nie (walaupun masa itu masih budak and the never been kiss lagi,tp budget suka lagu nie) so he said yeah, one day we'll dance to this song. But unfortunately,tak dapat coz we had a fight soon after that and lost contact. Sedih gila, he's such a sweet guy infact i think most of my guy type now are influence by him. But no one can compare to him. You're one of a kind aaron! Lagipun ingat senang nak carik mat salleh rambut hitam mata hijau yang sangat sweet siap cakap nak kahwin semua? siap dh bincang diffrent religion semua macam mana. cis, form 4 dah gatal nak kahwin.nasib baik umi tak tahu. kalau tak kena pukul.
Anyways aaron, here's to you, the boy who teach me to love and not to be afraid to be myself . This song will always reminds me of you!

Cruisin By Gwyneth Patrol and sapa ntah x ingat : No, Bukan bukan. Gwyneth just buat cover version for the movie duets. so recently me,Naya and Sufiey pegi makan at murni and then bosan gila tak tahu nak buat apa so naya suggested that we go to putrajaya and sight-seeing. Ok,bagi orang yang tak tahu mari saya bagitahu,saya amat suka long drive yang sangat mindless pada tengah malam. and lampu. and beach or tasik. so sangat teruja pergi putrajaya tengah malam duduk bawah jambatan yang ada lampu lawa tengok tasik bawah. so on the way there we're talking and i guess naya is feeling happy too and she sang that song and i think it just fit with the situation. you know, one of those memories you know you're gonna remember forever. I love that moment with them. sangant nostalgic (cheh. sebenarnya a few weeks ago jer dh la pergi like 20 mins jer and pergi chow pg al-safa afterwards coz aza menunggu).

Dont Phunk with my Heart by Black Eyed Peas :Ok, Ini agak kelakar, I will always remeber this song coz ada this one guy. He's trying to woo a friend of mine at that time. There's this one time he ask her, Do you smoke? and she said no and he thought she was lying and gila nak prove to her that he can be trusted he said "Even if you smoke pot it'll still be Ok baby and i'll smoke it too" and she told me afterwards,amidst laughter we both sang "if you smoke i'll smoke too, thats how much im in love with you" THAT line jer nyanyi. lain both tak tahu and both tak tahu which song and who's the singer. Tanya orang semua tak tahu, yerla,suara sorang-sorang sedap sgt pulak, sampai lagu dh jadik lain. mana orang nak tahu. so last last WEEKS afterwards barula tahu lagu Black Eyed Peas. Tu pun tahu masa tengah tunggu jerm dua-dua x tahu nak buat apa and it dawn to us who sang it. Sengal Dua-dua bimbo. But quest for that song lasted longer than the guy. Tahniah, anda diingati lagi lama skit sebab benda sengal yang anda utarakan. tapi sekarang muka anda dan nama anda pun saya dah tak ingat. and i bet my friend yang u dated pun lagi x ingat.Unless i sing this song. she'll laugh her head off and say "owhhhh,mamat tue!"

Last Request By Paulo Nautini : E.e let me hear this song the day after i broke up with him. It was like "adoiiiii,sakit!" I terus bukak headphones and told e.e tak mau dengar dh and she persisted. so i dengar jerla and nangis.god,bimbo dowh,jiwang sangat layak kena lempang. Then a few days afterwards i was talking to him and he said wether i heard about this one singer and he mention paulo's name and we both said the song tittle. Terdiam jap dua-dua and he said thats how he feel at that time. ouch,i dengar lagu tu pun feel the same thing tapi diam jerla.Dah la lagu tu about people who love each other but knows their relationship cant go anywhere,so diorang just nak one more time to be with ecah other. Then afterwards a few weeks tak bole nak dengar lagu tu. nangis teresak-esak. But now takde peraasan pun. bole sing-a-long lagi. Haha. But yes yes, dengar lagu nie ingat time kat rumah tya masa dia still duduk kat kem sg.besi masa tu kat hall and e.e paksa dengar this song.The power of the song. siap ingat masa tue pagi tya kat dalam bilik mandi and shasha tak bangun lagi. amek kau. who says we cant time travel?

Singing In the Rain,Various Mary Poppins songs: Nie senang, dalam bilik. Again, rumah tya tapi masa tu tya dah pindah subang and i was sick. was talking to e.e and we were talking bout old films that we love. and macam orang gila nyanyi dalam phone dengan e.e sampai tya suh senyap and tido.

Apology-One Republic:PD. TIESTO. AFTER PARTY. i think that sums it all for this song :)

Ok,dah penat share. Ada a few lagi actually but nanti-nantila.

Any songs that could trigger your memories babies?

Puppy Love :)

2009-12-09T00:03:00.001-08:00

To tell you the truth, i hate everything that reminds me of him but this does exactly it. Reminds me of him. This person. This him is an Ex that i suspected is my first love, hence the reason of me remembering him occasionally.Sometimes out of bitterness and mostly about all the silly things we made each other believe.

Anyways, we had a bad break up early this year and i guess its hard for him as it is for me too. He will sometime sulk for days ends because of our mutual disagreement (him wanting to stay close as like before we got together and me objecting to it and finding ways to make it hard for him to do that) but will eventually call back to say sorry and to try to reasons with me again.

So anyways, it was during this one of the sulking period that he decided to call. I guess he mustered the strength to argue with me again. I was watching a movie with a bunch of friend at
that time. I remembered it was raining. He calls and as usual, he talks as if nothing had happened,as if he didn't just break my heart and ran off with some other girls. Instead of fuming with anger and letting him have it like always, i decided to play along and just talk normally with him. Something bout the way he acted that night made me wanna wait and see what he is up to. I waited and it came.

I was leaning out the window at that time(they had bad reception there at the house) and out of sudden he said "sheena,what happen to us?" I was caught off guard. i known him for six years, and he hated this questions that will lead to other complicated questions.

"I dont know, you tell me, because last time i check, you decided to ran away with some chicks and left me." I let him have it

Silence. I waited

"I hate this, why is everyone doing this to us?" He's talking about the pressure among our friends that in the end,lead to the break up. I just kept my silence.

"Lets run sheena, Just you and me.If i have to work oversea one day, will you come with me? will you go with me to places no one knows us so we could start again? Biar diorang tak bole cari kita forever so we can be happy. nak sheena?"

The answer was out of from my mouth before i could even think.

"yes"

"You will?" He sounded surprised.

"Yes,lets" I said.

He doesnt know this at that time. But i cried when i said yes. At the other end of the phone, i could feel him smiling, immersed with happiness for my willingness to come with him.

Months later the promises has long been forgotten. Even I had forgotten bout it till i saw the picture, It made me smile now because it was silly and foolish of us. to think that love conquers all. we were so young and so hopeful and so trusting that each of us will take care of each other forever and ever. You with your silly needs for attention when your sick and me with my problems and my expectations that you could make them go away, you were my hero did you know that? I think if we sit and just reminiscence , i bet there's other things that we would remembers.

But i guess memories are meant to be kept. and much as precious as it is, i think its time for us to make a new memory. with new people :)

Goodbye sweetheart and one day if its meant to be, I'll see you in UK.

Auto lock it urself

2009-12-08T22:46:00.000-08:00

Kepada rakan-rakan saya yang pandai sangat install auto lock dkt keta(budget senang la kalau tekan break trus keta kunci) tolong jangan main lepas hand break pastue main tolak-tolak keta depan rumah saya pukul 4 am pastue bila dh puas main tolak-tolak baru sedar keta tue kalau tutup pintu dan engine still running dlm masa 5 minit dia akan auto lock. masa tue la nak kelam kabut ddk tepi longkang buat muka sedih, tgk jer org godeh keta dia. nasib baik gf hang terror bab bukak kunci ala-ala nak curik keta (btw miss F, manakah anda belajar buat mcm tue anyways?) Kalau tak alamatnya kena la si azam bawak u blk ghumah yang nun kat keramat tue amek spare keys and by the time balik ntah2 batteri keta pun dh habis.

This is not the first time benda nie jadik. dua-dua auto lock and dua-dua depan my house. Miss A kata sebab my house nie keramat. dia kata ada penunggu pantang tengok keta auto lock mesti dia nak kenakan. u're wrong Miss A, salah jangkaan awak. saya rasa ada kene mengena dengan awak juga,kerana dua-dua waktu itu anda and Miss A. adakah anda yang keramat?

jeng jeng jeng.

Conclusion dia xpyhla install auto lock, apa yang susahnya capai lock kat sebelah engkau tue jer wahai sayang-sayangku? infact, that's the only form of excercise yang korang buat.

For Your Consideration

2009-11-28T01:58:00.000-08:00

Please dont let go
I dont think that I could bear
Another heartbreak

Not another one
Anything that you need
Im here

Just
Dont.Let.Go
Please

Im afraid to tell you this
But I Love You
I really do

So hold my hand
Whatever it is
We'll work it out

I miss you
Come back

Places Long lost Forgotten

2009-11-28T01:35:00.000-08:00

Used to really,really wanna go here

but as times goes by
with lots of things to do
and other things that caught my attention

i just..forgot

what else did i have forgotten?

In case you guys didnt know
here is venice.

When I'm running

2009-11-26T04:04:00.000-08:00

I'll turn the music extra loud
So it'll drown out
The voices that's telling me
You're gone

Shut up voices
You pained this heart
It can bears no more

I'll just keep my head down
Looking at these treks
Right underneath me

Concetrating in putting
One feet foward
At a time
Im afraid
To look up

I'm still hoping
He'll be waiting
At the end
Of the road

I always end up
Dissapointed

I'll just work these legs
Extra hard
They screams in protest
But the pain
Makes me forget about the pain
somewhere else

Maybe just a little.
.............................

I missed him
I MISS YOU

Ouch

2009-11-25T04:19:00.000-08:00

how do you feel?

when all your friends kept telling you how understanding you are.
How they can tell you everything thats been going on if they life, what that they did and they know somehow you will understand them, and you will.

But then again the person that you care the most, the one yang you paling sayang siang malam nak tahu dia buat apa je, bila ada problem he ran away from you? maybe you tried to give them space,ignoring the fact that they dont even bother answering your call or your text for a few days dah but bila kawan dia ajak lepak bole jer dia angkat call, infact, dia yang call. how do you feel?

It hurts doesnt it?

so forgive me for telling him not to bother calling me ever again

Maybe he do have some problem,maybe im the silly one who thinks to much. If i am, tell me why he doesnt bother to give any explanation till now?

*tiba-tiba terdengar satu suara dtg dr mana ntah* sebab kau tutup phone kau satu hari!

K,fine. maybe i did. But I bet, krg bukak pun xder apa2-apa pun.

After i sent those text, i pretend not to care. Macam biasalah, bila these things happen mula la suara karl mcm yoda tue keluar dkt kepala and dengar la dia bagi semua quote-quote dia (where is that boy btw?). Dengarla dia ckp "dont hold your life for someone, Done make someone a priority..bla bla bla.." byk sgt la karl.

Anyways sekejap jer la ok. keluar semua women power, the I-dont-need-a-man attitude. But then bila tak samapai setangah jam..i have these feelings..i kinda miss him. a little. Maybe i reacted too harshly, too soon

But then again, a smart women leave before he is being left kan?

Plus im tired being a rag doll.
oh god
Malas la nak fikir.
whatever that will happen is going to happen<----ini karl yang cakap jugak.

Tentang ahli group V.F yg sgt meanie

2009-11-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

whats V.F?
excuse you,V.F pun x taw ke? V.F is not Vanity Fair ok?eventho most of the member is quite vain. thehhe. chill2, main2 jer. sheena syg korg.
V.F is vyruz family, the names a bunch op my sayangs at subang call themselves. HELLO, korg ingat perempuan jer ada group? lelaki pun ada ok? plus nie dari skola diorg pggl them self nie so xderla rasa nak muntah and tampar2 diorg umur 21 nak ada group lagi. And they are quite close. close yg smpy tahap i rasa luar dr group nie diorg mcm dh xder kwn lain. Close yg smpy i rasa rahsia dlm kain pun diorang share.korang korangggg! T.T
Xperla, atleast sapa lagi bole brag that diorg still rapat dgn kwn skola diorg? not many i think.

ANYWAYS, dh2, x pyh nak citer byk sgt pasal history korg. nie smpy esok pun x habis. I dont wanna talk about all of you. I nak cakap psl sorg jer.

I wanna talk about this particular group member :

(Eheheh..nak kutuk, so amekla gamba man yg plg ensem so nak pujuk)

Anyways did you know wht he did? smlm punyal excited nak kuar dgn diorg after hari yg sgt memenatkan. mula2 he picked me up from my house. dia still lagi jadik diri dia yg sgt baik and sweet. dh pas dia kutip freez and nazman barula syaiton dia kuar. We had to stop at his house first. anta food kat mak dia yg x makan lagi (ala2, shweetnya.) pastu odw nak pg tanjung dia cakap "eyh jap,ala, lupa sorg and terus pergi ke arah rumah dkt petronas usj 6 tue (sapa2 taw rumah siapa tawla. malas nak sebut nama dia )

me: man, nak pg mana?
man? nak pg mana lagi? nak amek ***** la! (nama x mau sebut)
me:jangan man, sheena ckp apa?
man: its time korg jumpa

that time i know they were kidding but muka semua serious mcm betul. i dh target dh, i'll play along, kalau btol mamat tue kuar i'm gonna get out of the car. masa tue air mata dh genang2 sebab x suka kena paksa jumpa mamat tue. tgk man, nak buat muka kesian. dia buat bodo jer. benti dpn umah HIM LAMA GILA! Then freez call HIM and kata kat mana and depan umah semua. part tue la yg kantoi sebab tetibe..jeng jeng jeng...hp freez bunyi. LOL! leganya, jgn ckpla.

Masa tue rasa lega ada, rasa mcm nak tampar diorg pun ada. masa tue semuala buat muka cute and x bersalah. macam tak kejamla and lawak la gurau senda biasa la diorg buat tue.

Ishk, kalau dia ada masa tue, sumpah sheena kuar keta and chow balik rumah. im sorry guys, i know korg nak sheena baik dgn dia. but i want him out of my life. and kalau anda buat lawak yg sgt x kelakar itu lagi, saya mengadu dgn azam!

ehehe..dh ngadu dh sebenarnya pun. hahah

Weird

2009-11-24T00:05:00.000-08:00

Today is a good day
of which i'll enjoy the most that i can
life is good people!
and it'll be funner once tasha and ami is back!
hehe
miss u babies! xx

This past 2,3 days, every that i go, i kept having this i dont what you called it. I think its a an out of body experience. anyways, i've been having these moments where at one time i could be lets say, mamak or in the car, chatting with some friends and suddenly i could smell the the sea! yes people. i could smell the sea! Right in the middle of the mamak! and quickly my soul will be transport to these exotic places. right beside the sea.Usually I'll start to picture myself in a hotel room and when i walk to the window and open look out...tadah! the whole entire beautiful beutiful ocean is right in front of me and i'll start to have these big euphoria feeling. Happiness i cant describe. I always love the sea =)

Anyways, this out-of-body experience only lasted till i blinked my eyes again and im back, to wherever it is i am

Maybe my body is trying to tell me that it needs a vacation;)

Okay baby! Lets!
First of all, NEW BIKINIS!

Now, who wants to join me?!

LIMA!

2009-11-23T04:30:00.000-08:00

Lima is next week. God, i really,really wanna go!
i wanted to go since last two,three years! but didnt get the chance too because dad said that he got tons of work to do and he cant take care of me and look after me. so i said "daddy, you just have to bring me there, i can take care of myself!" and do you know what he replies is?
"That's what i'm afraid of"

......

Argggh! I dont care. I wanna go this year.
I wanna gooo!!
*cue rolling on the floor, throwing the biggest tantrum*
and no! i didn't wanna go coz there's going to be alot of hot young pilots strolling around, not to mention the hot foreigners. ishk korg nie! I am not THAT shallow. *menipu* K la, fine. maybe a little.
But mostly i just wanna see the cool airplanes show and just chill around the island eating chocolates, fufu and watching the beautiful "birdies" up in the sky.

Beside, boy already promise he'll accompany me. It should be fun. Its been MONTHS since i was him. i miss him and being with him had always been lots of fun

so here to going to LIMA!
God, im going to beg him till he's ears fell off.

Remember?

2009-11-23T01:45:00.000-08:00

I made this for you once
wonder if you still keep them

Trust Issues

2009-11-23T00:04:00.000-08:00

E thinks i'm making up stories about her bf that once come on to me. Why? coz he told her that it was a joke. if it's a joke I, tell me this, why is it took you so long to say the "haha, gotcha?"

and why do would you only say it when i hinted E first?

Think, E! Think! I know i once did something im not proud off, which is dating an ex of a friend, which make me a BF STEALER. but that was a different story. different time and people! I would never did anything like that to you. and i never wanted to steal Ezad away from her too. And im sorry till now, karma made me pay big for that

I know you have a doubt over my stories and somehow he's version makes more senses. But think.

I want you to be happy, but at the same time.
I need you to know im not lying
It doesnt feel like a joke to me
If it is, that's some sick joke

Insecurities

2009-11-22T23:15:00.000-08:00

How do you feel if
you cant help
the one person
that you love the most?

you feel
useless isnt it?

feels like breaking something
anything
just so
this feeling of helplessness
would disappear

why wont he
reach out a hand
so i could help him?
why drown
if you could survive?

Its too early to speak about love
but i do know
i care for you
and its killing me
not knowing whats wrong
and not being able to help

so tell me baby
whats wrong?

Of Break ups

2009-11-21T20:54:00.000-08:00

I know that a certain close friend of mine is happy
that the boy she had a crush on is RECENTLY FRESH ON THE MARKET
Go for it C!
He's gorgeous.
But careful. you're threading on thin ice
Everyone know that they always fight
But will get back together in the end
May the best girl win
But you have to remember
even if you have him
it doesnt mean the fight is over
word on the street is
He has a wondering eyes
Hence all the fighting he have with the For-Now-ex-Gf.

Bday boyyy!

2009-11-21T20:25:00.000-08:00

Happy bday babee!
Hope you had fun yesterday night and may all your years to come be blessed with lots of love and hopes coming through!
Coz god knows, you deserve it. hehe
cheers love! xx

Of a Fab night

2009-11-21T19:42:00.000-08:00

That is well spent, the great reminder why sometimes even though you were totally tired and you could think of nothing else but your bed but you muster all you strength you have to see this people. This silly loved ones. Who makes it an effort to see you even if they live miles and miles away.

Okay, this is kinda funny. teringat something. on how i was trying to make an effort to see a friend of mine last night who lives like a few block from me.
On how she said she was super busy
On how in the end she said that she actually wanted to see my ex
(who's a big asshole and i never wanna see again. no, im nt being bitter. he just is)
On how in the end, my friend from ttdi and ampang who calls me constantly
Wanted to spent time with me
Why is it that they could come all the way to subang to see me and you couldnt come and say hello once in awhile?
Thats all i ask
And yes, i know he's more important to you than me
But a simple hello how are you would be nice
Its not only just him who loves you and wants to spent time with you
I love you too
I hate fighting friends with him.

Anyways this post it aint about her. tersasar jap. what i wanna tell you that its true. anywhere is a great place if its with the right people. it was just perfect. good food, great people, fab shesha. Patutnya pg changkat, bday booga or zouk kenapa ntah naya nak pg sana smlm. x ingat. but end up pd andalus jer smlm after celebrating azam's bday. But it was fun. Naya was right, dont plan, it wont go out right. the spontenous things is much more funner.

Seeing him for the last time before he went back makes it more fab=) I'll miss you sayang and what you said yesterday really made me smile.

Of how a bull save a night

2009-11-20T19:58:00.000-08:00

Naughty naughty N, going out to socialize minus the bf who sat blissfully unaware in UK ;)
Would be fun, if it wasnt for the fact that you bumped with his WHOLE gang! Damn, that part is still funny!

Dull night, thank god that a red bull came and hypen up the night. wait, wasnt that fun actually, funny. yes. fun? nah. but you have to admit, the drink is delicious. At least thats d only good think bout last night.

Thanx for the drink gorgeous! and may he'll remain blissfully unaware forever. what he doesnt know wont hurt him huh?

(sorry N. cant help it. have to blog bout it. haha)

Because I am an Idiot

2009-11-19T20:08:00.000-08:00

That i did not see the sign
that he was never really in love with me.

its been a few days
and still he doesnt text
nor a single e-mail
mana syg i nie?
did he meet someone else
that he likes
more than me?

maybe its already over
maybe i should leave now
before he said goodbye
oh pls god
not this time
i think i got enough heart break to last me
a lifetime

maybe he's sup-
owh wait,
there's a text
its from him
it says
"i miss u sweetie, cant wait to see you"

.............

maybe i'll stick around
for awhile
=)

Lets. you and me

2009-11-19T01:38:00.000-08:00

Lets,
you and me
take that long vacation
that's long overdue
ditch that car of yours
coz its drowning out my words
lets take a bike instead
and cycle uphill
towards take cliff
overlooking that ocean
that big blue ocean

Lets seat underneath that tree
and lets talk
like we used to
lets laugh
surely you havent forgotten
how hilarious we both can be
if its just
you and me

so lets, take that bike
and cycle
towards that road.

I heart this

2009-11-19T00:45:00.000-08:00

Mummy, can i have a room exactly like this, please?
i promise i keep it clean
but i cant promise i will not have
a sleepover
every.single.night
you could join to if u want to umi!

so can i please have it??

Too scared too speak out

2009-11-17T21:51:00.000-08:00

Have you ever had this one moment
where you have thousand things
running through your mind
but you're afraid to voice it out
afraid to be judged
to be sneer at
to be talked about
i did

Ever since a close friend of mine passed away
last ramadhan
ive been meaning to talk about it here
but i was to scared
to voice it aloud
afraid that if i talk about it
that its true
that he's really is gone
you see
i never get the chance to thank him
for saving me
that time
and the fact that he never talks about it
afterward
and just give me time
to heal
and to talk about it myself
makes him more amazing than ever

i cried
three days straight
when he passed away
remembering him
he's energy is infectious
and he always had this big grin
and this ears that seems to always ready to listen
always caring
always trying to be there
for you

so abbil, thank you
you have been such an amazing friend
you will always be remembered by the
people who love you
and will always love you.

maybe now, i could accept the fact
that you're really gone.
maybe you are
but deep inside our heart
is where you live
always
forever

sleep tight abbil
we'll meet again
one day

Wake up and see

2009-09-08T01:49:00.000-07:00

How can I describe
The feelings i have for him
that stood to manifest
Growing stronger
With each day
That I ignore it

Wake up and see
These feelings that is standing beside you
Glowing brighter
With just a smile that you threw upon her

Tried as I might
This foolish heart wont listen
Waiting. Patiently
For the day you realize it too

That day
I saw it in your eyes
The looks i've been searching for
But quick as it came
It dissapeared
What's holding you back?

I maybe foolish
For hoping something that i might not be there
But i am a fool who listens to her heart
So i'll wait for you to turn around
And see me
The one who loves you
From the very beginning

Encik fawwaz ;)

2009-09-05T15:51:00.000-07:00

Ladies, take a good look at him

GORGEOUS. Isnt he?

baru ingat nak pg auction him to my single hot girl friends

dpt duit raya skit kan?

then dia ckp dkt i "sheena, i dh ada gf"

damnit la chiwoo. rosak plan i!

but whatever it is, i love u and i know what you've been through

and im happy to see the sparkle back in ur eyes

so yeah,walaupun u rosakkan plan i, im really happy for you

congrats chiwoo! and i wish it would be everything that you hope it'll be

wuah.mcm u nak kahwin plak.theheh

tyqa, ur one lucky girl

he's such a sweetheart.

please take good care of him:)

btw chiwoo, its okay. i can still auction lan . haha

Why?

2009-09-05T00:15:00.000-07:00

I dont get it. why did he have to burn them?

Is he afraid that his dad will watch it next?

About a friend

2009-09-04T23:43:00.002-07:00

you may wonder why on earth do i have her big ass picture in my blog. lemme tell you a story.

One day, out of boredom, I posted this question at answer.com

"How do you win a cold-hearted girl and make her stay?"

so came the usual sincere reply like:
"This is very easy. you cant win her over, she has to choose to change. she has to want to change. you can put your best foot foward.but she has to choose to stay and be warm hearted"
sgt sweet kan? i think so too

and there's a kind-of negative ones, but he's trying to help isnt he?
"why would you want to? get rid of her and get a loving one!"

but this one, i like the best:
"why would you want to?just throw her out of the bridge or something."

i would love to. but the problem is the girl im talking about is her

myaza hartini who happens to also be my best friend.

Im just posting the question to help the poor souls who tried to win her heart in vain.
wht do u think fellas? should i still throw her out of the bridge? and which bridge?

Stranger From The Past

2009-09-04T23:35:00.002-07:00

Hello you,
you're asking do i miss you?

Of course i do

But

Every single day that you did not look for me

I became more stronger

So thank you
For showing me the strength i never knew i had

Reason why i still never left

2009-09-04T23:31:00.000-07:00

"I just need to find your flaws and i wont like you anymore'
I told him

He grins.
"owh really? hows that working for you?"

"Irritatingly, i even find your flaws irrisistable"

Funny what love does to us isnt it?

If You..

2009-09-01T14:06:00.001-07:00

Find yourself suddenly waking up
in the middle or the night

or

Have to get up for sahur

or

you're just like me, which you're just on the way back in the middle of the night after mamak session in the night

why dont you look up?
and see the brilliant stars.
the stars really came up to play this ramadhan

its shininning brighter than Elizabeth Taylor's diamond.

Makes you feel so lucky to be alive?=)

I Create This For You

2009-09-01T06:01:00.000-07:00

All of you

Sometimes you may wonder
what am i up to.

But maybe you cant ask me directly because;
you're too far away

I left my phone. again

your ego wont let you. yes, you. you know who you are.

or for whatever reasons.

either way you just want to know how i am.
so here you go, somewhere for you to make sure that im alright and still telling my tales.