To Miss A,
Thank you for always taking care
Of the airhead that is me
You dont have to
But you always do
Thank you
I said something that might hurt you just now
Im sorry
After the emotion subsides
And logics started to crept back
I have to admit
That I am ashamed of myself
For now I realise
The emotional outburst
Had always come because of me
The way I behave
The way I always think that everything will be sort out for me
For my sometimes insensitivesness
The way I am always reckless
Irresponsible
Therefore I am sorry
For words I might hurt you
What have I done to deserve you?
Im sorry
Forgive me.
I know I always say this
But I will try to become a diffrent person
Someone who is more responsible
Please dont stop caring
Coz I need you
And I do look up to you
You're always the stronger ones between us
And because i am a coward, i mintak maap kat sinik jer
Tak berani mintak maap depan-depan.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
If Songs Could Trigger Memories
If songs could trigger memories,then these songs never fails to re-live a long lost forgotten memory. You know what i mean, this songs that whenever its played you will be immediately be transported to another space and time. Immediately you remembered the people,the place and even sometime the smell of that particular time. Like you're transported back to it.I think This is a few of the songs that never fails to take me away to other places.
We Could Be in love By Lea Solanga : I dont think most of you ever heard of Lea, unless you're a fan of of musical thatre and adrew lloyd webber. She is freaking amazing.nyanyi yang tahap pitching tinggi gila but still sangat sedap,kalau i buat memamg lari semua anjing kucing dekat rumah.
Anyways, this song nie walaupun love song but my dad yang suka. Masa first time bought the CD,it was in penang and for three days dia asyik ulanggggg jer lagu nie.kira sampai jer kat kl i dh khatam lagu ini and nak dengar lagi memang "owh tidak,please la kau rosak CD" tp memang CD tue evil. tak rosak pun,maka sampai jer kat Subang,keesokan hari nya CD itu tiba2 "mysteriously" hilang. Tak sanggup dah dengar, so i nyorokkan. Lantakla abah, u nak jerit marah2 tanya mana CD u pun i tak kisah. anything but to hear the song. again! Lama-lama dia lupa la pasal lagu tu. leganya.
But, kalau rindu si gemuk tu dulu masa time gaduh bukak jugak lagu tu. Orang dengar ingat tengah putus cinta tapi sebenarnya rindu bapak. So kalau dengar lagu nie jer mesti ingat bapak. And still hafal lagu nie sampai sekarang (that song was like,from 5 years ago i dengar)
Kissing A fool By Micheal Bubble: Ehehhe. Nie lagu budget sweet memories.There's this one guy once. He's name is aaron Walsh, macam mana ntah that time we're talking and he said he always slow dance with his mom. I told him i never slow dance before(hello, masa tue form 4, nari takat joget dalam bilik sorang-sorang jer dulu) and he said one day we'll slow dance together and he'll teach me how to. I pun dulu bimbo gila, ingat slow dance kena ada this macam ballroom type of song jer and i ask him betul ke? Dia gelak jer and ask me to choose any slow songs that i like, and i choose this song coz masa tue i suka gila dengan song nie (walaupun masa itu masih budak and the never been kiss lagi,tp budget suka lagu nie) so he said yeah, one day we'll dance to this song. But unfortunately,tak dapat coz we had a fight soon after that and lost contact. Sedih gila, he's such a sweet guy infact i think most of my guy type now are influence by him. But no one can compare to him. You're one of a kind aaron! Lagipun ingat senang nak carik mat salleh rambut hitam mata hijau yang sangat sweet siap cakap nak kahwin semua? siap dh bincang diffrent religion semua macam mana. cis, form 4 dah gatal nak kahwin.nasib baik umi tak tahu. kalau tak kena pukul.
Anyways aaron, here's to you, the boy who teach me to love and not to be afraid to be myself . This song will always reminds me of you!
Cruisin By Gwyneth Patrol and sapa ntah x ingat : No, Bukan bukan. Gwyneth just buat cover version for the movie duets. so recently me,Naya and Sufiey pegi makan at murni and then bosan gila tak tahu nak buat apa so naya suggested that we go to putrajaya and sight-seeing. Ok,bagi orang yang tak tahu mari saya bagitahu,saya amat suka long drive yang sangat mindless pada tengah malam. and lampu. and beach or tasik. so sangat teruja pergi putrajaya tengah malam duduk bawah jambatan yang ada lampu lawa tengok tasik bawah. so on the way there we're talking and i guess naya is feeling happy too and she sang that song and i think it just fit with the situation. you know, one of those memories you know you're gonna remember forever. I love that moment with them. sangant nostalgic (cheh. sebenarnya a few weeks ago jer dh la pergi like 20 mins jer and pergi chow pg al-safa afterwards coz aza menunggu).
Dont Phunk with my Heart by Black Eyed Peas :Ok, Ini agak kelakar, I will always remeber this song coz ada this one guy. He's trying to woo a friend of mine at that time. There's this one time he ask her, Do you smoke? and she said no and he thought she was lying and gila nak prove to her that he can be trusted he said "Even if you smoke pot it'll still be Ok baby and i'll smoke it too" and she told me afterwards,amidst laughter we both sang "if you smoke i'll smoke too, thats how much im in love with you" THAT line jer nyanyi. lain both tak tahu and both tak tahu which song and who's the singer. Tanya orang semua tak tahu, yerla,suara sorang-sorang sedap sgt pulak, sampai lagu dh jadik lain. mana orang nak tahu. so last last WEEKS afterwards barula tahu lagu Black Eyed Peas. Tu pun tahu masa tengah tunggu jerm dua-dua x tahu nak buat apa and it dawn to us who sang it. Sengal Dua-dua bimbo. But quest for that song lasted longer than the guy. Tahniah, anda diingati lagi lama skit sebab benda sengal yang anda utarakan. tapi sekarang muka anda dan nama anda pun saya dah tak ingat. and i bet my friend yang u dated pun lagi x ingat.Unless i sing this song. she'll laugh her head off and say "owhhhh,mamat tue!"
Last Request By Paulo Nautini : E.e let me hear this song the day after i broke up with him. It was like "adoiiiii,sakit!" I terus bukak headphones and told e.e tak mau dengar dh and she persisted. so i dengar jerla and nangis.god,bimbo dowh,jiwang sangat layak kena lempang. Then a few days afterwards i was talking to him and he said wether i heard about this one singer and he mention paulo's name and we both said the song tittle. Terdiam jap dua-dua and he said thats how he feel at that time. ouch,i dengar lagu tu pun feel the same thing tapi diam jerla.Dah la lagu tu about people who love each other but knows their relationship cant go anywhere,so diorang just nak one more time to be with ecah other. Then afterwards a few weeks tak bole nak dengar lagu tu. nangis teresak-esak. But now takde peraasan pun. bole sing-a-long lagi. Haha. But yes yes, dengar lagu nie ingat time kat rumah tya masa dia still duduk kat kem sg.besi masa tu kat hall and e.e paksa dengar this song.The power of the song. siap ingat masa tue pagi tya kat dalam bilik mandi and shasha tak bangun lagi. amek kau. who says we cant time travel?
Singing In the Rain,Various Mary Poppins songs: Nie senang, dalam bilik. Again, rumah tya tapi masa tu tya dah pindah subang and i was sick. was talking to e.e and we were talking bout old films that we love. and macam orang gila nyanyi dalam phone dengan e.e sampai tya suh senyap and tido.
Apology-One Republic:PD. TIESTO. AFTER PARTY. i think that sums it all for this song :)
Ok,dah penat share. Ada a few lagi actually but nanti-nantila.
Any songs that could trigger your memories babies?
We Could Be in love By Lea Solanga : I dont think most of you ever heard of Lea, unless you're a fan of of musical thatre and adrew lloyd webber. She is freaking amazing.nyanyi yang tahap pitching tinggi gila but still sangat sedap,kalau i buat memamg lari semua anjing kucing dekat rumah.
Anyways, this song nie walaupun love song but my dad yang suka. Masa first time bought the CD,it was in penang and for three days dia asyik ulanggggg jer lagu nie.kira sampai jer kat kl i dh khatam lagu ini and nak dengar lagi memang "owh tidak,please la kau rosak CD" tp memang CD tue evil. tak rosak pun,maka sampai jer kat Subang,keesokan hari nya CD itu tiba2 "mysteriously" hilang. Tak sanggup dah dengar, so i nyorokkan. Lantakla abah, u nak jerit marah2 tanya mana CD u pun i tak kisah. anything but to hear the song. again! Lama-lama dia lupa la pasal lagu tu. leganya.
But, kalau rindu si gemuk tu dulu masa time gaduh bukak jugak lagu tu. Orang dengar ingat tengah putus cinta tapi sebenarnya rindu bapak. So kalau dengar lagu nie jer mesti ingat bapak. And still hafal lagu nie sampai sekarang (that song was like,from 5 years ago i dengar)
Kissing A fool By Micheal Bubble: Ehehhe. Nie lagu budget sweet memories.There's this one guy once. He's name is aaron Walsh, macam mana ntah that time we're talking and he said he always slow dance with his mom. I told him i never slow dance before(hello, masa tue form 4, nari takat joget dalam bilik sorang-sorang jer dulu) and he said one day we'll slow dance together and he'll teach me how to. I pun dulu bimbo gila, ingat slow dance kena ada this macam ballroom type of song jer and i ask him betul ke? Dia gelak jer and ask me to choose any slow songs that i like, and i choose this song coz masa tue i suka gila dengan song nie (walaupun masa itu masih budak and the never been kiss lagi,tp budget suka lagu nie) so he said yeah, one day we'll dance to this song. But unfortunately,tak dapat coz we had a fight soon after that and lost contact. Sedih gila, he's such a sweet guy infact i think most of my guy type now are influence by him. But no one can compare to him. You're one of a kind aaron! Lagipun ingat senang nak carik mat salleh rambut hitam mata hijau yang sangat sweet siap cakap nak kahwin semua? siap dh bincang diffrent religion semua macam mana. cis, form 4 dah gatal nak kahwin.nasib baik umi tak tahu. kalau tak kena pukul.
Anyways aaron, here's to you, the boy who teach me to love and not to be afraid to be myself . This song will always reminds me of you!
Cruisin By Gwyneth Patrol and sapa ntah x ingat : No, Bukan bukan. Gwyneth just buat cover version for the movie duets. so recently me,Naya and Sufiey pegi makan at murni and then bosan gila tak tahu nak buat apa so naya suggested that we go to putrajaya and sight-seeing. Ok,bagi orang yang tak tahu mari saya bagitahu,saya amat suka long drive yang sangat mindless pada tengah malam. and lampu. and beach or tasik. so sangat teruja pergi putrajaya tengah malam duduk bawah jambatan yang ada lampu lawa tengok tasik bawah. so on the way there we're talking and i guess naya is feeling happy too and she sang that song and i think it just fit with the situation. you know, one of those memories you know you're gonna remember forever. I love that moment with them. sangant nostalgic (cheh. sebenarnya a few weeks ago jer dh la pergi like 20 mins jer and pergi chow pg al-safa afterwards coz aza menunggu).
Dont Phunk with my Heart by Black Eyed Peas :Ok, Ini agak kelakar, I will always remeber this song coz ada this one guy. He's trying to woo a friend of mine at that time. There's this one time he ask her, Do you smoke? and she said no and he thought she was lying and gila nak prove to her that he can be trusted he said "Even if you smoke pot it'll still be Ok baby and i'll smoke it too" and she told me afterwards,amidst laughter we both sang "if you smoke i'll smoke too, thats how much im in love with you" THAT line jer nyanyi. lain both tak tahu and both tak tahu which song and who's the singer. Tanya orang semua tak tahu, yerla,suara sorang-sorang sedap sgt pulak, sampai lagu dh jadik lain. mana orang nak tahu. so last last WEEKS afterwards barula tahu lagu Black Eyed Peas. Tu pun tahu masa tengah tunggu jerm dua-dua x tahu nak buat apa and it dawn to us who sang it. Sengal Dua-dua bimbo. But quest for that song lasted longer than the guy. Tahniah, anda diingati lagi lama skit sebab benda sengal yang anda utarakan. tapi sekarang muka anda dan nama anda pun saya dah tak ingat. and i bet my friend yang u dated pun lagi x ingat.Unless i sing this song. she'll laugh her head off and say "owhhhh,mamat tue!"
Last Request By Paulo Nautini : E.e let me hear this song the day after i broke up with him. It was like "adoiiiii,sakit!" I terus bukak headphones and told e.e tak mau dengar dh and she persisted. so i dengar jerla and nangis.god,bimbo dowh,jiwang sangat layak kena lempang. Then a few days afterwards i was talking to him and he said wether i heard about this one singer and he mention paulo's name and we both said the song tittle. Terdiam jap dua-dua and he said thats how he feel at that time. ouch,i dengar lagu tu pun feel the same thing tapi diam jerla.Dah la lagu tu about people who love each other but knows their relationship cant go anywhere,so diorang just nak one more time to be with ecah other. Then afterwards a few weeks tak bole nak dengar lagu tu. nangis teresak-esak. But now takde peraasan pun. bole sing-a-long lagi. Haha. But yes yes, dengar lagu nie ingat time kat rumah tya masa dia still duduk kat kem sg.besi masa tu kat hall and e.e paksa dengar this song.The power of the song. siap ingat masa tue pagi tya kat dalam bilik mandi and shasha tak bangun lagi. amek kau. who says we cant time travel?
Singing In the Rain,Various Mary Poppins songs: Nie senang, dalam bilik. Again, rumah tya tapi masa tu tya dah pindah subang and i was sick. was talking to e.e and we were talking bout old films that we love. and macam orang gila nyanyi dalam phone dengan e.e sampai tya suh senyap and tido.
Apology-One Republic:PD. TIESTO. AFTER PARTY. i think that sums it all for this song :)
Ok,dah penat share. Ada a few lagi actually but nanti-nantila.
Any songs that could trigger your memories babies?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Puppy Love :)
To tell you the truth, i hate everything that reminds me of him but this does exactly it. Reminds me of him. This person. This him is an Ex that i suspected is my first love, hence the reason of me remembering him occasionally.Sometimes out of bitterness and mostly about all the silly things we made each other believe.
Anyways, we had a bad break up early this year and i guess its hard for him as it is for me too. He will sometime sulk for days ends because of our mutual disagreement (him wanting to stay close as like before we got together and me objecting to it and finding ways to make it hard for him to do that) but will eventually call back to say sorry and to try to reasons with me again.
So anyways, it was during this one of the sulking period that he decided to call. I guess he mustered the strength to argue with me again. I was watching a movie with a bunch of friend at
that time. I remembered it was raining. He calls and as usual, he talks as if nothing had happened,as if he didn't just break my heart and ran off with some other girls. Instead of fuming with anger and letting him have it like always, i decided to play along and just talk normally with him. Something bout the way he acted that night made me wanna wait and see what he is up to. I waited and it came.
I was leaning out the window at that time(they had bad reception there at the house) and out of sudden he said "sheena,what happen to us?" I was caught off guard. i known him for six years, and he hated this questions that will lead to other complicated questions.
"I dont know, you tell me, because last time i check, you decided to ran away with some chicks and left me." I let him have it
Silence. I waited
"I hate this, why is everyone doing this to us?" He's talking about the pressure among our friends that in the end,lead to the break up. I just kept my silence.
"Lets run sheena, Just you and me.If i have to work oversea one day, will you come with me? will you go with me to places no one knows us so we could start again? Biar diorang tak bole cari kita forever so we can be happy. nak sheena?"
The answer was out of from my mouth before i could even think.
"yes"
"You will?" He sounded surprised.
"Yes,lets" I said.
He doesnt know this at that time. But i cried when i said yes. At the other end of the phone, i could feel him smiling, immersed with happiness for my willingness to come with him.
Months later the promises has long been forgotten. Even I had forgotten bout it till i saw the picture, It made me smile now because it was silly and foolish of us. to think that love conquers all. we were so young and so hopeful and so trusting that each of us will take care of each other forever and ever. You with your silly needs for attention when your sick and me with my problems and my expectations that you could make them go away, you were my hero did you know that? I think if we sit and just reminiscence , i bet there's other things that we would remembers.
But i guess memories are meant to be kept. and much as precious as it is, i think its time for us to make a new memory. with new people :)
Goodbye sweetheart and one day if its meant to be, I'll see you in UK.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Auto lock it urself
Kepada rakan-rakan saya yang pandai sangat install auto lock dkt keta(budget senang la kalau tekan break trus keta kunci) tolong jangan main lepas hand break pastue main tolak-tolak keta depan rumah saya pukul 4 am pastue bila dh puas main tolak-tolak baru sedar keta tue kalau tutup pintu dan engine still running dlm masa 5 minit dia akan auto lock. masa tue la nak kelam kabut ddk tepi longkang buat muka sedih, tgk jer org godeh keta dia. nasib baik gf hang terror bab bukak kunci ala-ala nak curik keta (btw miss F, manakah anda belajar buat mcm tue anyways?) Kalau tak alamatnya kena la si azam bawak u blk ghumah yang nun kat keramat tue amek spare keys and by the time balik ntah2 batteri keta pun dh habis.
This is not the first time benda nie jadik. dua-dua auto lock and dua-dua depan my house. Miss A kata sebab my house nie keramat. dia kata ada penunggu pantang tengok keta auto lock mesti dia nak kenakan. u're wrong Miss A, salah jangkaan awak. saya rasa ada kene mengena dengan awak juga,kerana dua-dua waktu itu anda and Miss A. adakah anda yang keramat?
jeng jeng jeng.
Conclusion dia xpyhla install auto lock, apa yang susahnya capai lock kat sebelah engkau tue jer wahai sayang-sayangku? infact, that's the only form of excercise yang korang buat.
This is not the first time benda nie jadik. dua-dua auto lock and dua-dua depan my house. Miss A kata sebab my house nie keramat. dia kata ada penunggu pantang tengok keta auto lock mesti dia nak kenakan. u're wrong Miss A, salah jangkaan awak. saya rasa ada kene mengena dengan awak juga,kerana dua-dua waktu itu anda and Miss A. adakah anda yang keramat?
jeng jeng jeng.
Conclusion dia xpyhla install auto lock, apa yang susahnya capai lock kat sebelah engkau tue jer wahai sayang-sayangku? infact, that's the only form of excercise yang korang buat.
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