Puppy Love :)

To tell you the truth, i hate everything that reminds me of him but this does exactly it. Reminds me of him. This person. This him is an Ex that i suspected is my first love, hence the reason of me remembering him occasionally.Sometimes out of bitterness and mostly about all the silly things we made each other believe.

Anyways, we had a bad break up early this year and i guess its hard for him as it is for me too. He will sometime sulk for days ends because of our mutual disagreement (him wanting to stay close as like before we got together and me objecting to it and finding ways to make it hard for him to do that) but will eventually call back to say sorry and to try to reasons with me again.

So anyways, it was during this one of the sulking period that he decided to call. I guess he mustered the strength to argue with me again. I was watching a movie with a bunch of friend at
that time. I remembered it was raining. He calls and as usual, he talks as if nothing had happened,as if he didn't just break my heart and ran off with some other girls. Instead of fuming with anger and letting him have it like always, i decided to play along and just talk normally with him. Something bout the way he acted that night made me wanna wait and see what he is up to. I waited and it came.

I was leaning out the window at that time(they had bad reception there at the house) and out of sudden he said "sheena,what happen to us?" I was caught off guard. i known him for six years, and he hated this questions that will lead to other complicated questions.

"I dont know, you tell me, because last time i check, you decided to ran away with some chicks and left me." I let him have it

Silence. I waited

"I hate this, why is everyone doing this to us?" He's talking about the pressure among our friends that in the end,lead to the break up. I just kept my silence.

"Lets run sheena, Just you and me.If i have to work oversea one day, will you come with me? will you go with me to places no one knows us so we could start again? Biar diorang tak bole cari kita forever so we can be happy. nak sheena?"

The answer was out of from my mouth before i could even think.

"yes"

"You will?" He sounded surprised.

"Yes,lets" I said.

He doesnt know this at that time. But i cried when i said yes. At the other end of the phone, i could feel him smiling, immersed with happiness for my willingness to come with him.

Months later the promises has long been forgotten. Even I had forgotten bout it till i saw the picture, It made me smile now because it was silly and foolish of us. to think that love conquers all. we were so young and so hopeful and so trusting that each of us will take care of each other forever and ever. You with your silly needs for attention when your sick and me with my problems and my expectations that you could make them go away, you were my hero did you know that? I think if we sit and just reminiscence , i bet there's other things that we would remembers.

But i guess memories are meant to be kept. and much as precious as it is, i think its time for us to make a new memory. with new people :)

Goodbye sweetheart and one day if its meant to be, I'll see you in UK.