Too scared too speak out

Have you ever had this one moment
where you have thousand things
running through your mind
but you're afraid to voice it out
afraid to be judged
to be sneer at
to be talked about
i did

Ever since a close friend of mine passed away
last ramadhan
ive been meaning to talk about it here
but i was to scared
to voice it aloud
afraid that if i talk about it
that its true
that he's really is gone
you see
i never get the chance to thank him
for saving me
that time
and the fact that he never talks about it
afterward
and just give me time
to heal
and to talk about it myself
makes him more amazing than ever

i cried
three days straight
when he passed away
remembering him
he's energy is infectious
and he always had this big grin
and this ears that seems to always ready to listen
always caring
always trying to be there
for you

so abbil, thank you
you have been such an amazing friend
you will always be remembered by the
people who love you
and will always love you.

maybe now, i could accept the fact
that you're really gone.
maybe you are
but deep inside our heart
is where you live
always
forever

sleep tight abbil
we'll meet again
one day